A state which can neither be described nor grasped…as if suddenly, for the first time ever, an escape from the world became successful..you look at yourself and cannot recognize what happened before..there must be something there between you today and you yesterday…delicate, lucid matter which protects thoughts so they don’t couple with the future..you feel the distance increase with each day, but it is not a matter of remoteness…it all happens nearby, only you know how near all those who have decided it wasn’t worth their while to look for you.